sadness...

nowadays i really dont know what is going on with me..im emo all the time...haiz...and just dont have any happy feelings...all is sadness...full of sadness....yea..mayb sometimes i will smile and joke wif u guys..but actually im not happy..sometimes u all think im so hardworking...dont talk in class and just sit quietly copy notes...actually im not hardworking...im just emo...just dont want to talk...want to be alone...but im afraid of loneliness...haiz...why? i feel like im so weird...weird until i dont know is this the me i suppose to be...haiz...