sadness...

nowadays i really dont know what is going on with me..im emo all the time...haiz...and just dont have any happy feelings...all is sadness...full of sadness....yea..mayb sometimes i will smile and joke wif u guys..but actually im not happy..sometimes u all think im so hardworking...dont talk in class and just sit quietly copy notes...actually im not hardworking...im just emo...just dont want to talk...want to be alone...but im afraid of loneliness...haiz...why? i feel like im so weird...weird until i dont know is this the me i suppose to be...haiz...

to hyen,man man and ning...

hyen, man yan, yeh ning.....i miss u all...i got many things want to share with u all... now i cant find a right person to talk with...i miss the time tat u all give me support...opinions....and sharing urs de shoulder with me...i really miss u all very much....love u guys...i will try to be strong on my own...i will... ^^

bad news

today when i reach home...my driving uncle call me...he told me a very bad news...he say the drving test list come out le...me and sue hyen de name also not inside the list...because too many ppl go for the test le...arghh...hate it...y until today only tell me leh? cant they just inform earlier? really feel like want to scold them...haiz...now no choice le...have to go on 1st of march...its monday...now my problem is...i dont know whether tat day v will have mid term exam anot...i really hope dont have...pls..god...just let me pass my driving test and let me study like normal...i dont want to skip any exam papers or class le..i dont want bar form exam....pls...god...pls help me...

uni comp lab

yeah~ actually now v should be having our tutorial class for critical thinking...but all the tutorial questions is too short...so v finish the class in just 10 minutes..hahahahaha...so now im so free...free until i can online by using our uni de comp...hehehe...and...with all my friends beside...hehe...the feelings is so good...haiz...but now im not in the good mood..cause tomorrow i will have the driving test with sue hyen...im so scare...haiz...pls help me....haiz....

driving test

i have to go for driving test on next tuesday....now i feel so scare....is jus t like last time having spm...when ever i wake up in the middle of the night...my nind will full of the step of how to drive.park...and those driving stuf...i so scare la....i know i cannot panic..but i just cant control it...im human being leh...how to control? haiz...haiz...i scare when i park tat time i will hit the stick...then i scare i cant go up the hill or i go too fast and cant stop at the yellow line...i really very worry...haiz....

JENNY's birthday party~

yesterday me and my tuition friends attend jenny's birthday party...hehe...^^ jenny is so beautiful...and i like her hari style...hahaha....^^ below r some of the pictures tat took during her party...

my course...and my loneliness...

haiz...i now worry tat i should choose IT anot? now in my class...not even 1 ppl study the same subject with me...i feel so lonely....haiz...besides that...i also scare i cant handle this subject...i know this will be a interesting subject...and it will be in high  demand by the company as less ppl study this subject...but i just feel so lonely...haiz...y all the time i have to be lonely leh? at first no 1 from my school go to the same college with me...then all the friends i know is in ty2...now...no ppl take the same subject with me...y so bad? y just always make me alone? i hate it...i really hate it...i like someone can always beside me...accompany me to go through all my problem and share my happy moments with this person..haiz...but it seems like so difficult for me to find that person....

my uni friends~

hehe...today v just finish our maths quiz...finally its over...now i can relax a bit...but the week after chinese new year v got our mid-term exam le...haiz...so means i cant play too much during chinese new year la...haiz...sad la...chinese new year also have to study... haiz...below is a pic tat i took with my uni friends...they all r nice...hehe... ^^

most of them r in ty2...but im in ty1...but i feel like im 1 of them le...hahahah....^^

uni life~

i still nid to suit myself wif uni life...is just so different...normally v will only do work when teacher call to...but now...v have to do our own without teacher's order...lol...im not use to it...haiz...actually i should have take some pics with my uni freinds so tat i can post in my blog...its too long tat i din update my blog becos i dont have new pis...lol...pls forgive me...cos v dont have the mood to take pic also....this thursday (4th feb) v will ahve a maths quiz...haiz...its so difficult..and i totally dont understand what the lecturer teaching...haiz...(to my secondary school friedns...now i think mr.ragu is better la...haiz..) but i have no choice lo...have to study on my own...have to look through those example from reference book...lol...and those book tat use in uni is so expensive...i think i would not buy any book in my nxt sem...if really nid it...i will just photostate...at least is more cheaper... =)